one last thing, and then it's off...

I had to edit the letter before I sent it this morning.  There was one thing missing that I couldn't let be unsaid.  And I also decided that the parents do not need to see the letter that I am writing to the OB.  I will share it on here, but I am no where near ready to start it yet.  I'm getting there, for sure, but it will take me a little more time. 
Speaking of the OB.  His wife put a quote on FB last night that gave me chills.  A. if she knew what this man was capable of (and what he did to me), it would make her sick and 2. it was so incredibly fitting and I even commented on how it applies, but left it at that.

your 1st mistake was pissing me off..your second was underestimating me

Oh yes, that is exactly how I feel now.  In the stages of grief, I think I am getting to the point where I am just so completely pissed off.  How could he do those things to me?!  But I will come out fighting and he will not win and have control over me!


Here is the part that I added to the letter for IM. 

I am not angry with you about the birth.  What the OB did to me was a different matter that did not involve you.  But I am disappointed in you, as a woman, that you did not advocate for me or the babies.  When I lost my voice at the end, you should have stepped up and taken over for the babies as their mother.  Not just during the birth, but at the end of the pregnancy as well.  I was the only one fighting for their safety.