D&C day

In the middle of a freakishly early for this time of year snowstorm, I had the surgery today.  Last night I didn't sleep good at all.  I kept dreaming that the OB was in the room for my surgery and my arms were strapped down and he was coming after my vagina with a chain saw.  Any of you that know me in real life know that those are the only things in this world that I have an actual phobia of.  Even writing the words just gave me chills.
Anyway, the nightmares were not pretty at all last night, so hopefully I can get some sort of sleep tonight.  I've had my oldest son sleep in my room with me for the last couple of nights.  He said that I woke him up crying last night.  :(  I don't look forward to the day that he asks about the whole ordeal.  He knew that I was having a minor surgery today.  My kids (fortunately, or unfortunately! lol) know all about vaginas, penises, cervixes, etc so he understood what was happening today.  
My mom came and picked me up and we made the hour drive.  

Everything went pretty well. The OB was amazing at doing everything that I requested.. only women in the room, not restraining my arms at all, music playing, talk me through everything step by step, let me see the computer screen and explain everything to me, she didn't put up a drape so that I see her face and so that I could feel 'involved'. Those things made a huge difference in how it could have gone.

However, the spinal started wearing off when there was about 20-25 minutes left to go and I could feel the scraping, before that it was just pressure that I felt. I wasn't about to let them know because the anesthesiologist had already told me that if the spinal didn't work that she'd put me out with twilight. Hell to the no. So I just concentrated on breathing and not showing any pain on my face. And then the resident was really scraping in and out where all of the scar tissue is on my cervix and 'slightly nicked' the bottom. So the OB had to put in 4 stitches. That felt awesome. Barf.

There were a few bigger clots in there and one was up in front of my right fallopian tube so we couldn't really see the opening on the screen. And she said there were a few clusters of polyps. I've never had polyps before and so that part has me clueless and I'll have to research about it tomorrow.  She said that because of the drugs from IVF, twins the size of small elephants, hemorrhaging after, etc that I was at high risk for them.   
Anway, it's all empty now and that's what is important!!

I just wanted out of there and couldn't wait till I started being able to move a little bit. I was moving like a crack addict trying to hurry up and get the feeling back. As soon as I could really feel my feet I told the nurse that I needed to pee. She walked me to the bathroom and I had her get a pad for me. I told her I peed and she got my discharge papers. Yeah, my bladder was still way numb... but it worked and I'm home. My back is freaking killing me. Holy balls it hurts & now the cramping has started too.  They offered a pain script, but no thanks.  I had Mom stop to get Aleve, but I'm not planning on taking any.  Just get through tonight and hopefully it will be better tomorrow.

Thank you guys so much for the emails, texts, and calls. Hopefully this is the end and I can start to get my life back.