nice and considerate

Still haven't heard a word from the parents about the letter, or the bills.  I did receive the post card back showing that IM signed for the letter about the bills.  So today I called the hospital and sure enough they paid the bills the day after they got that letter in the mail.  So that part is finally done.  
I'm aggravated that she didn't at least email me to let me know that they took care of their responsibility.  Oh well, it's done.


And I am slowly putting together an outline in my mind for the letter to the OB.  I know there are a few key issues that I want to bring up to him.  Not just his lack of disrespect, or even the physical abuse that he did to me, but I am going to ask him the important "WHY?".  I know I'll never get a response back from him, and I am definitely good with never ever seeing his name written again.  But I need him to hear me ask why he did everything.  
Hopefully tonight I can start on the letter.  I can't believe how much better I feel after just sending the long letter to my IPs.  I feel like I can almost start to put that anger away.  I wonder if I'll feel the same way after I send the OB a letter?  
(oh, and to clear up any confusion to anyone reading this.. in the letter I stated that my BP went up when 'Dr N' came in... this was not my OB, it was the one on call the night I was in L&D)


I'll be doing a lot of positive affirmations in the next few days I have a feeling.  I need to remember that what happened was not something that defines me.  It was something that I went through and survived.  You can't control the action, but you can control the reaction.  I will appreciate any good vibes that you have to send my way!